janey waney

060910: one year anniversary<3
061610: korea’s first game of world cup! :) even though no one has hope in korea :(
061810: PROMPROMPROM!
061910: jersey shore 8-)
062010: jersey shore 8-)
062410: walking down the aisle at graduation.
062810: getting my diploma and we are OUT!

Can’t believe life flew by so quickly. I remember thinking to myself I can’t WAIT until I go to college and that was when I was in the 3rd grade. Back then it seemed like college was years and years away and I had plenty of time to think about it or prepare for it.

Guess I was wrong. It’s so scary how fast life passes and how you get so lost in the midst of all of the it. Right now, getting married and becoming a mom seem so far away but watch when it happens, it’s gonna feel like just yesterday I was writing this post.

Life needs to slow down a little bit… 

Baby this is tragic, cause we had it we was magic. I was flying, now I’m crashing. This is bad, real bad.

The funniest part is that none of this is actually funny.

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(via claireintumbland, itsdemi)

i’ve been so doubtful lately and i hate it. it used to be so easy for me to trust: trust people, trust God, trust my friends, and trust myself. i’ve gotten to a point where i feel like everyone’s going to disappoint me. my friends won’t be there or won’t be able to make me feel better. nothing fazes me anymore. “omg you were too good for that guy anyway.” pfft, c’mon. stop with the bullshit. i don’t share my problems with anyone anymore cause i’ve realized they’re not going to make me feel better. it’s like there’s nothing that i can seek comfort in or be feel like i’m secure and safe. 

even with my family. i’ve been raised by my parents and siblings, grown up with my younger brother and after 18 years can they really tell if i’m bothered? or sad? or happy? even after spending 18 years with them they can’t tell and maybe if they do, will they help me or express themselves to me?

and i feel so disgusting to come to God. how can i be in his presence being the person i am? i’m two-faced. in church i’m one person, the rest of the week i’m another. what sucks the most is that i want to experience love but how can i do that when i don’t even know God? God is love. 

i want to be a little kid again when i didn’t question anything in the world. when i knew that Jesus died for me, God was always going to protect me, my parents love me (not that they don’t now), and the most important people in my life were my friends.

it’s just not the same anymore and the saddest part is that it never will be the same.

i’m an insecure person. i have doubts of my personality, school work, appearance, etc. i always wonder and ask myself, “why did God make me this way? why couldn’t i be pretty like *blank* or smart like *blank* or tall like *blank* or rich like *blank*?” 

i guess i lose sight of a lot of things and just wish myself the best. basically i guess i’m a selfish person; i want the best for myself, i want the benefits, i want the perfection that possibly other people may have in my opinion. 

i’m not sure where this is leading but after reading a bunch of inspiring stories, i guess God really does have a plan for me. a reason why he made me the way i am and a reason why things are the way they are. looking back at my life, there were numerous times where i thought my life was terrible and nothing would go right. now, i have a loving strong family, great friends, and a church that i can always seek comfort in. God does have a plan for everything. all the hurts and pains i felt led to this point in my life where i appreciate all that He has done for me. not just the good things but the bad things as well.

hopefully now i can just trust God that everything is under his control and i’m not going to have to worry about anything. He’ll lead me through all of the overwhelming fears and anxieties that have been burdening me. and just maybe, this can inspire someone to appreciate the good & bad and realize what i have realized tonight. 

i lovvvvveeeeee going to the movie theater. tanber and i almost always have watched the most recent movies and movie-hop all the time. damn, this is really hard to choose… 

i guess i would say ALL the disney movies. no doubt. :) they never disappoint me and i love them all so much :) i get so excited every time a disney movie comes outtttttt.

alladin, lion king, the princess & the frog, little mermaid, kungfu panda…… so many!!! :)